I apologize

What is important?
Your physical health
Your clear mind
Your living spirit

Not what you have
Not what you own
Not….

What is more important?
Your joy
Your ambitions & dreams
Your balance

Not the talk
Not the walk
Not…

We die
We live
We live
We die

This world is a mess
Try to make it as clean as possible

This world is hard
Try to make it as easy as possible

This world is sad
Try to make it as happy as possible.

My heart is with you.
I apologize.

illusionary face

Sometimes misunderstood

I find I can be interpreted unjust

Sometimes misused

I find I am judged in vain

Sometimes misplaced

I find I react to that place

I find I react in that place

A shame, Ashamed

You too.

My 1st Exhibition ;)

My postcard was displayed yesterday at the opening of the Out-Of-the-Box Exhibition, a beautiful initiative directed by the Non-Profit Organization Kav Hazinuk, celebrating 100 years to Tel-Aviv. Very cool exhibition! I am grateful for the opportunity and proud to have participated. Thank you!

my 'meaning' of employment?

Hi! I'd like to share with you two old entries I wrote over a year ago in my diary, maybe to try to understand myself this path I chose to take, where it came from and why? Allow me to reflect on that place so that I may discern where I stand today on the issue of employment and meaning in my life…thanks. 17.6.08

Today is 11 months to my mother's passing. It's actually 1:00 am and I just finished watching the movie Bucket
List...funny how timing is everything...Two guys who share the same room in the hospital during chemotherapy, decide to travel together and complete their list of dreams before they die...I wish my mother did that before she died, I wish she had left everything and just gone traveling and doing things she'd always wanted to. I mean, me and her, we took flamenco classes together the last year, and ceramics, but we were also stuck every two weeks to go to chemo or the hospital or some doctor or another who never seemed to really care if my mother was happy or sad, because her well being was neither their responsibility nor their priority. I remember always being very angry with most of the doctors I'd encounter, it was always a struggle, a war to get treated as an equal or as a human in need, just like them if the tables were turned.

In any case, I wish my mom would of had the courage to run off, do something wild, even against her usual habits, it could have freed her, could have liberated her! I once quoted in my blog, 'there is nothing to fear than fear itself'.. well isn't it about time I take on my own advice while I am still living this life, not wait for the end to be surprised with what I did or didn't do with my life, think of the Bucket List now, and go out and just do them. One by one, even if it takes you time, make out the list of dreams to fulfill in this lifetime, with no limitations or fears to go out and pursue them.

Let's see A... Do you have the balls?
What is your list now?

29.7.08

I woke up to a new day, it's my day off from work so I should be so grateful for that! but it seems I am never satisfied, what is wrong with me?

At 17:00 today we go to the cemetery to see Ima, so I can understand my distant bewildering feelings from the second I woke up. Though I think this feeling has been accompanying me for weeks now. Questions like, a year has past? how? when? but everything is the same, how can it be? What, I didn't change? I didn't learn anything from this heart aching experience we had to endure together? you are the same, everything is the same? it can 't be!

I keep searching for a drastic extreme change in my life, not including the fact that Ima is gone. Again, I know I have changed inside, but my daily life routine is just the same, this makes me crazy! but then again I am too chicken shit to do anything about it...

I know that running away is not the solution, but it is something I think about every single day since. Why am I so locked on this high level "business woman" path. I am always saying there must me much more to life than this sometimes so shallow way of living.

But then again I counter that and say, I should be grateful to be here, I managed to work my way up to this standard, I should be not only proud of what I have and made, I feel I need to keep sustaining it, not throw it away!

So now you see how I am trapped... I need to change this somehow, either in my mind or through my actions, otherwise I will forever be unsatisfied. I don't want to find myself in a few years regretting anything, I need to enjoy the moment, live the second, embrace it all! silly A...

Rise to it.

" Your Life is an Occasion, Rise to It."
~Mr. Magorium

Success without a College Diploma

Abraham Lincoln. 16th President of the United States. Successfully led the country through its greatest internal crisis, the American Civil War, preserving the Union and ending slavery. Lincoln's formal education consisted of about 18 months of schooling, but he was largely self-educated and an avid reader.

Bill Gates. Ranked as the world’s richest person from 1995-2006, Bill Gates was a college drop out. He started the largest computer software company, Microsoft Corporation. Gates and his wife are philanthropists, starting The Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation with a focus on global health and learning.

Coco Chanel. An orphan for many years, Gabrielle Coco Chanel trained as a seamstress. Determined to invent herself, she threw out the ideas that the fashion world deemed feminine, boldly using fabric and styles normally reserved for men. A perfume bearing her name, Chanel No. 5 kept her name famous.

Frank Lloyd Wright. Having never attended high school, Frank Lloyd Wright surpassed all odds when he became the most influential architect of the twentieth century. Wright designed more than 1,100 projects with about half actually being built. His designs have inspired numerous architects to look at the beauty around them and add to it.

Henry Ford. At 16, Henry Ford left home to apprentice as a machinist. He later started Ford Motor Company to manufacture automobiles. Ford’s first major success, the Model T, allowed Ford to open a large factory and later start the assembly line production, revolutionalizing the auto-making industry.

Michael Dell. With $1,000, dedication and desire, Michael Dell dropped out of college at age 19 to start PC’s Limited, later named Dell, Inc. Dell became the most profitable PC manufacturer in the world. In 1996, The Michael and Susan Dell Foundation offered a $50 million grant to The University of Texas at Austin to be used for children’s health and education in the city.

Quentin Tarantino. Writer and film director who is best known for his movies Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill Volume 1 and 2, Reservoir Dogs, From Dusk Till Dawn and many more was born March 27, 1963 and dropped out of High School in grade 9. Went on to become one of the most successful movie/writers in Hollywood today.

Steve Jobs. After attending one semester of college, Steve Jobs worked for Atari before co-founding Apple Computers. Now without the “Computers” in their name, Apple includes innovative products such as the iPod, iTunes, and most recently the iPhone. Steve Jobs was also the CEO and co-founder of Pixar before it merged with Walt Disney.

Thomas Edison. Considered one of the most prolific inventors in history, holding 1,093 U.S. patents in his name. Education started late due to childhood illnesses. Formal education lasted only three months, and was schooled by his mother thereafter.

Walt Disney. Having dropped out of high school at 16, Walt Disney’s career and accomplishments are astounding. The most influential animator, Disney holds the record for the most awards and nominations. Disney’s imagination included cartoons and theme parks. The Walt Disney Company now has annual revenue of $30 billion.

Spiritual One

Something deeper connects us
We will never know what
But the fact that it exists
Between us
Is a miracle in itself

We will forever be
Connected
As related spirits
We will all meet again

This is our chance to love
All of my love
To you

Returning home to me

It is ok
Starting to feel anew

It is liberating
Starting to loosen the tie

It is fine
Starting to have security

Be. Do. Have.

better sharing

I’ve witnesses enough
I lost a dear soul
A friend
A companion
A teacher

I don’t want to lose you too

My mother was always there to answer me
The one person I confided in
Who was always by my side

As months conclude to two years
I learn to confide in others
Comforting shoulders
Trusting listeners
Reaching hearts

I don’t want to lose you too

My recent rendezvous turned out to be
The one person I want there
By my side, with me

I pass enough
I learn enough
Each day to

Share with thee
Today

momentarily

Left all alone at home
Once a Wonder-woman
Now the needy woman

Want to return to me
Back to that cozy spot
Where I felt free

Powerful
Warm
Secure

Here.

Left all alone at home
Once a Wonder-woman
Now the needy woman

I will miss you.
Though missing me
Is what brought this on to be

Confused
Weak
Insecure

Here.

Left all alone at home
Once the needy woman
Tomorrow a Wonder-woman

I will love you.
Though loving me
Is what will bring us to be

Friends
Lovers
Partners

Here.